Tomorrow my heart will rejoice...and break

Well, tomorrow is the day my little man turns one. How the heck did this happen? I am NOT prepared. I am so sad that a year has flown by but so thankful for what it has held. You.

I celebrate the last 364 days, all that Tristan has brought to my and so many other's lives. He is far greater than I ever thought he could be. I don't deserve this sweet little man but am so thankful that God chose me... the horribly imperfect Julie to be his mom. Wow.

Tomorrow I will start his new blog and do my best to get this one bound. I want Tristan to have this ... the good and the bad.. to someday look back on and smile.

I love you sweet boy. I look forward to a million more laughs and snuggles and I can't wait to hear "Mommy, I love you." For today however, I will take your sweet little head nod and your open mouth kisses... and be thankful that you are EXACTLY the way you are. I wouldn't change one thing about you, not one single second (maybe take away you EVER being sick) but even that I know is preparing you for the world.

Tristan Holt Barber.... YOU are the greatest thing I have every done, your daddy and I love you more than you could ever imagine. Thank you for what YOU have given to us - God is good!!

Love, Mommy